1. the act of setting someone free from imprisonment, slavery, or oppression; release.
2. freedom from limits on thought or behavior.
The past four years have been a whirlwind. As you all know, I got pregnant five years ago, had my son four years ago and I gave my life to Christ a little over three years ago. Much has happened before and in between them. I will share my testimony in another post soon. But, in this season that I am in, I am reveling in my freedom. Christ died on the cross so that we can be free from sin. Free from bondage. Free from old mindsets. Free from toxic relationships. Free from the mistakes of our past. Free from debilitating situations. Free to be whom He called us to be. Recently losing 65lbs has given me a new found freedom. I feel as I am also coming into my 29th year on this year, I am in a new growth period, not only as a woman, but as a mom as well. Freedom is knowing who you are and being okay with your imperfections. Freedom is being confident in the skin that you are in.
About a month ago, I went out with some friends and I was able to actually get dolled up and have some adult time. Which if you know me, is very, very, rare. It was a fun night dancing and laughing with my girls and just celebrating where we all are in life. For a moment, I thought “wow, this is what this feels like?”. I spent so many years focusing on being a mom (which obviously that never changes), that I really lost sight of my appearance and over all – I lost sight of who I was. You get so caught up and used to being bogged down to people who God did not intend you to be bogged down by. You start believing who they say you are instead of who Christ says you are. Stuck in old eating habits. Allowing foods to run the course of your body instead of you controlling what is put in your body, If Christ guarantees us freedom, why do we force ourselves to be connected to those that do not serve in our missions here on earth? AKA why do we allow ourselves to be unequally yoked? This can be true for both relationships and friendships. It is important to surround yourself with those who uplift you, encourage you (this is a biggie for me!), support you and keep you accountable.
As I am getting to learn who I am in this new skin, I have completely changed my eating habits which hold us all hostage. In America we are predisposed to horrible eating habits. I have been eating organic for some years now before it became the cool thing to do. I do tons of research on where our foods come from and what the FDA adds to our foods that is the basis of so many other diseases and internal complications. Change your food and water and you will literally change your life. So, back to me, my eating habits have changed drastically therefore my body is also transforming. Lightning speed, I might add. So I struggle with keeping my energy levels up but YHWH is my refresher. Aside from my eating habits, I’ve learned to love myself more. To be gentle to my body. Our bodies are really amazing entities and you won’t know the strength of it until you push it to the limits. When I was starting my weight loss journey, I had to fast for twelve days. TWELVE! It was the hardest twelve days of my life. I was so sick I couldn’t understand why Christ would do this for 40 days and 40 nights! Not to sound overly dramatic but I literally thought I was going to die! LOL. But I made it through (by the grace of God) and my entire palette was reset. I no longer craved sugar or fatty foods. I couldn’t eat sweets or fruit. And the only thing my body wanted was water. It was rough but there is such a sense of relief and freedom in knowing WE have the power to maneuver our bodies in that manner. As the weight started coming off, my skin started clearing up, hair started changing, and I could only eat completely fresh foods. Isn’t that crazy? Everything was changing. But man, I have such a new found appreciation for what our bodies are built for! Now if only I can appreciate working out and pushing my body to those kinds of limits. But that’s another story. LOL.
I recently went through mine and K’s closet and threw out 9 bags of clothes. Seven were mine and two were his. This was a wardrobe that was accumulated over the course of 5 years just about of all baggy, and sloppy clothes that I would use to hide under because I felt so disgusted with myself. i never tried. It was so incredibly freeing to be able to release myself of old clothes that no longer fit me. I donated all of it. It was a blessing for me just as much as it was for whoever received from it. I have been slowly adding key pieces back into my wardrobe. I’m in a XS/S now from a 1X/XL. Can you even believe it? I surely cant! I always knew some way some how I would be thin again so I love shopping my own closet to repurpose and give new meaning and life to the clothes I once held so tightly on to. Grateful I never felt led to get rid of all my smaller clothes and equally grateful that it was so easy for me to get rid of my bigger clothes. I’ll never go back there again and I’m happy my spirit and flesh can both agree on that.
Freedom is knowing that although things might not always look perfect, it is not for you to worry, because God’s got you. No matter what. There’s freedom in knowing that no matter what, things will always work out in your favor. I feel liberated in my journey through motherhood too. I no longer feel the need to compete subconsciously with other moms. Or state how I did it all alone for a very long time (even though I did though). But I’ve learned to embrace each woman as individual mothers and accept that we are all a hot mess at some point or another. Not one of us is perfect and that is okay. I’ve learned not to feel so guilty if I’m not always doing it the “right way”. Granted, I am a firm believer in intentional parenting. It is our jobs to raise functioning babies that eventually become adults and will go out into the world to do what YHWH has called them to do. But I feel free in knowing that He lights our path. Whatever you feel tied down by, give it to Him today. Allow Him to renew your strength and set you free.
I don’t know if I’ll do this for every post but I wanted to share a few scriptures on liberation:
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. – Galatians 5:1
Live as people who are free, not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God. 1 Peter 2:16
And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. – John 8:32
Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. –2 Corinthians 3:17
For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. – 2 Timothy 1:7
And, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness. – Romans 6:18
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. – John 8:36
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. – John 10:10
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. – John 15:1-8
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. – Isaiah 40:31
A big thank you to my girl Naj for capturing my liberation on camera !!!
I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t brag about my inexpensive outfit:
♥ Photographer: Naj from Driven x Style
♥ Location: New York City
♥ High waisted mom jeans 50 cents Old Navy
♥ Shoes $10 from Payless (last year)
♥ Longline vest $8 from Wet Seal (last year)
♥ Long sleeve crop $5 Wet Seal.
♥ Necklace is from @frugalfindsnyc. (last year)
♥ Lunch bag clutch $15 eBay.
♥ Belt is thrifted vintage $3 (I’ve had it for about 8 years now)
♥ Lipstick is LimeCrime $16 (6 years ago)